I think that the Orlando Magic's loss to the Lakers for the title can be summed up with one person.
Nelson from the Magic wasn't on his mark in game 4. He could have won the game with a three. But, instead, he broke the play. So, when his teammate went to pass him the ball and it wasn't there, it bounced into the Lakers section. Of course, Kobe gets it and seals their fate. Had Nelson have been on point, they would have won and not half-heartedly played game 5.
In other news, things are going great and shitty at the same time. Something's been weighing heavily on my mind, and I tried talking about it to someone at work today. They simply stated that "it is what it is". Not quite like that, but essentially that there's nothing I can do about it.
Those are the worst moral defeats. The ones where its not a competition, but I just feel like I'm losing something very important, and can't stop it. I've already noticed myself doing what I normally do in situations like this. I'm forcing myself to feel negatively. If I do damage before they do, then it won't be as bad, I guess. It's retarded, and such a stupid defense mechanism to have.
I know I talk from time to time about the wires in my head being crossed, but they really feel like it. It's ridiculous because it's been like this for so long. Mostly, I don't dwell on it, and just kind of move along. I think one day, that's going to come back to haunt me. ugh..